i don't know how i made it thru these days.
i feel so sad deep down inside but at the same time seeing you makes me happy. why is it this way? can a person feel happy yet so broken hearted at the same time?
how is it that, that same person who claims to love you can become another person and hurt you at the same time?
i'm always and constantly wondering about this, yet i stil don't have the answer.
i don't want to give up. this is the first time i'm like this, literally throwing away everything just for someone. perhaps it's stil not evident enough to you, or enough for you. and for this, i apologise. but i have been trying, even if you tell me i'm a failure. even when you tell me i messed up your life, even when the tears just come like free when i see all those msgs, i still tell myself i love you. i know you don't mean it, but words do hurt, stil hurt, no matter how much we don't mean them or never meant to hurt anyone with them. and it's worse when it comes from someone you truly adore. you have been the best thing that's happened to me, the reason and cause for my changes in attitude, temper, perception, ego; everything. yet the same reason why im so weak emotionally these days. do you get what i mean? truly?
i have nv put in so much for anyone before.
why does this have to happen. i can't picture myself standing alone. i cannot bear to.
instead, i picture me, happy, smiling, blissful. and of course, with you, by my side. definitely. without you, it cannot happen. i won't allow it to happen this way.
i'm sad. yet happy. am i gg mad? and to think i study psychiatry. what a laugh.
yes, i'm truly a failure.

happy birthday yang bibi :)

one more week left of school. chiong~

i bet you can't feel my pain.

i'm gg mad man.
i cannot find my log book.
i haven't completed my stupid case study.
i haven't started studying for beh. sci test.
i CANNOT WAIT for this week to be over.
pls let a fucking miracle happen. that i'll find my book somehow. pls pls pls.
gonna enroll for class 3 license v v soon!
planning baby's bday. can't wait!
k i'm gonna chiong now. chiong = deprived of precious slp. oh no.....

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while you're running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

but im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while you're running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

but im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me

yes it's like this on purpose :)

tigers. (hahaha)

this is what happens when you are too lazy to blog - a whole shitload of photos to upload. haha. i have no more weekends now. everyday is burnt. nvm, persevere!!!!

i absolutely LOATHE doing case studies. and i have to do one by thurs. wasting my time. tests and exams. i loathe this period of time too. damn sickening.

041109- rmb what you said ok baby. xoxo.

your birthday's coming!! :)

happy birthday winnie A.K

hope you liked the presents!! :)
work = money. money = bliss. haha.
school's gonna be out in a few weeks time. chiong!